Friday, February 15, 2008

I'm a big kid now

I just got business cards in the mail... it took quite a long time to get them (I've been working for this company for 9 months), but...it's still surreal to me. I know it might sound silly, but having business cards makes me think I should feel a lot more grown-up than I do. I think it's so adult-like to pass a business card on, and I just don't feel like that's where I am.

I didn't take this step, who sprung me here? Did I miss something? Because I feel like I did. Where's the part between being a student and being a grown-up? Is everyone just throw in like this? Because I, personally, feel a little uncomfortable about that.

No wonder so many people go to grad school. You can continue to hide from adulthood for a while and spend some time figuring out what you really want to do --- College is about having fun, yeah you work on "finding yourself," but I don't think many people really know what they want to do until they're already done with college. And then you stop and think, "where did my life go?"...."Wait, what did I want to do? Is this it? Can I rewind if I decide it's not?"

Or is my answer 'No, little girl, you jumped without knowing it, you're already there, this is your life....'

1 comment:

Nikki said...

I remember when I first got my business cards I totally felt like a big kid. I wanted to give a card to everyone I knew. You'll have to send me one. :)